The Dayz by Vane D. Lopez

Letter to GOD

Dear God,

Thank you for always being there when I needed you
Thank you for listening to my prayers
When all seemed lost you gave me hope
Even through my dark days you gave me light
When I was to weak to seek change you gave me strength
When I saw myself as unworthy, You taught me that I am worthy of love and respect

I’m in a much happier place now even though I still have my days when I look at...

the past
But just knowing that you will always be there to guide me in my path comforts me.
I’m no longer that naïve girl who was afraid of being alone
Your love is all I need to get me through my days.
Everyday is a struggle but I become stronger and wiser

I watch the years go by so fast as my children grow up.
I don’t want them to grow up just yet.
I wish I could seize the moments and just forget.
There’s no doubt that my children are the most amazing gift you have ever given me.
They fill my life with love and strength.

I have something to live for what more can I ask.
Everyday is a challenge, everyday is a task
But I try to handle it with grace as best as I can
I do have my days though as I am not perfect
It’s easy to give all of myself to their special needs and lose myself in the process
But it’s OK I’m up for the challenge, I’m willing to accept my purpose.

I’ll see you when my journey is over
But not yet I have so much to live for and so much to do.
I won’t let you down.

-Vane D. Lopez

My Father

He is a man of strength and wisdom. Although he has lived many years, he stands strong like a vulture. His old age does not reflect his inner youth. It started with a dream within himself and sacrifice for his family. He does not regret what he did in search of freedom and survival for he now has not only one dream but many dreams for his family. His heart is made of gold yet it is priceless. Always willing to work hard with his hands like they taught him in his hometown of Nuevo Leon, Mexico. He is proud of his culture and he makes sure to teach his grandchildren and children of his traditions but he is more proud of what it took to become a Mexican-American. He is an artist and singer who remained undiscovered for his art represents wisdom, courage, and survival. His heartfelt stories are impacting and circulating. His voice represents hope and life. He sings to his family and his grandchildren. He sings to nature while he teaches his autistic grandaughter how to draw and paint. He sings to his granddaughter while she falls asleep. He sings to God with his guitar everyday. He is an angel to everyone who has ever known him. He is a father, a grandfather, a brother, a husband, a friend. He is my father, Mi Padre, mi heroe, he is my strength and he is irreplaceable. 

Blind Response

As the darkness intensifies so do my senses and self-awareness. The dryer is tumbling the children's clothes and the echoes of laughing children is still present. 

The heater roaring away trying to keep my home warm yet fails to keep my heart warm and content. My heartbeat is stomping away from my chest. 

The children are off to school so the home is missing something. My stomach roars begging me to feed it. The cell phone is practically screaming for me to pick it up and even though I can't see it with my eyes, I quickly find it as my ears guide my every move. 

Surprisingly I am able to walk around my home as if my eyes were wide open. Though physically all I see is dark, I can see and feel everything around me.

 As I pass through the hallway, I can visualize all the art work of my precious children. My daughter's first time writing her name in the wall is still present. The cracks on the wall when the children played baseball inside the home doesn't upset me anymore and comforts me. 

My eyes see darkness yet my heart sees light. Life embraces this home. Memories of young children give this home life even when they are not present. Life makes this house a home and that gives my heart comfort and peacefulness.

Letting Go

Standing strong today

Looking at the past

And its swaying ways.

The life that we held

Will no longer be the same.

Standing strong today.

The realization of a parting day.

The letting go 

And its swaying ways.

The dark nights parting ways,

The Gaining of self worth,

Standing strong today.

Knowing there's much more to gain

But with feelings of emptiness

And its swaying ways.

The love that once was, faded away,

But the heartache still alive, aching away.

The infinite death of a parting day

And Its swaying ways.

-Vane D. Lopez 

The Beginning

It seemed like things were finally falling into place.

I was demanding respect and  I was obtaining it. 

I could still view images in my head 

So vividly as if it were just yesterday, 

But for once, hope and inner happiness embraced me,

But disbelief still burdened me,

As the scars in my heart filled me with emptiness.

Still, I saw some light underneath the darkness 

And that comforted me in a strange unusual way. 

Free At Last!!!


 -Vane D. Lopez  ;) 

LAND OF THE FREE OR LAND OF THE ELITE?

"LAND OF THE ELITE"

Quiero vivir en "La Tierra De La Libertad"

Pero siempre estan deteniendome contra mi voluntad

Quiero vivir en "La Tierra De La Libertad"

Pero siempre están controlando me dormida y despierta

They wanna arrest Latinos for any reason

And force Latino Babies to go back to their parent's country

This country was made of immigrants and now they wanna stop the expansion of the population

Why? Cause they're afraid Latinos will take over this nation

The largest minority into majority

I don't know about you but hey will not stop me

For fighting for my people

This ain't no movie with a sequel

This is reality in a world full of insanity

This ain't the "Land of the Free"

Should be called "Land of The Elite"

But that's about to change

We're about to rearrange 

They want to rewrite history

We're about to write one of our own

There's too many of us It will be hard for them to control

If another revolution is the solution

There will be no confusion of the illusion

They have brainwashed us into believeing

They have always been conceiving the plot to destroy the minority

Inflation through deflation so they can buy up the majority of the countries

More money more power seems to be their goal

They blew up the twin towers so they could take control

Blamed it on the immigrants so they could spy on the innocence 

The Patriot Act was enacted

The human rights people reacted

How can "The Land Of The Free" be now "The Land of The Greed"

Our founding fathers warned us about the dangers of tyranny

Why couldn't we forsee

Now our land is in jeopardy 

But here comes our saviour or so we think

A man of color who promises change

He gives us hope promises to rearrange 

The laws with so many flaws

But after his victory 

He reveals his true identity

He does not work for The People

He works for wallstreet

His actions not his wise words to the reactions should prove reality

Seems like no one cares what is happening to their country

They're more into thechnology

"Oh put on my chip" they say "I will not resist"

"Lets track the terrorist that don't even exist"

Till this day the weapons of mass destruction are missing

We went into war when the proof wasn't even existing

The world is coming to an end

Time to stop the pretend that everything's ok

And the economy is stable

Our troops are dying everyday

Its time for us to enable the original constitution that made this country great

"The Land Of The Free" has now been filled with hate

But as long as I'm alive I will fight for our rights

Whether it be through my music, education, information Through the sites 

You will know your rights

Quiero vivir en "La Tierra De La Libertad"

Pero siempre estan deteniendome contra mi voluntad

Quiero vivir en "La Tierra De La Libertad"

Pero siempre están controlando me dormida y despierta

-Vane D. Lopez

INNOCENT AS CAN BE

Trying brush it off like it don't bother me

Trying to make it seem like love just ain't for me

But deep down inside I know

I just wanna go back to the days when i was just a kid

Innocent as can be butterflies were all real to me

The fairytale life was part of my dreams

A naive young girl who just wanted to believe

That the world was mine

And true love was real

I was Afraid to be alone

Just wanting to feel complete

Fearful of the unknown

I settled for defeat

I gave my heart, my freedom, my life

All for a fantasy world filled with love

I couldn't accept that love wasn't for me

I felt my calling in life was to fall in love 

With prince charming and live happily

Little did I know that life is a mystery

As I look back and reminisce 

looking in the mirror at the windows of my soul

I see a different person

I wish i could go back and talk to the old me

I would let her know that life is not about living in a fantasy

Its about following your Dreams

Its ok to be alone 

Love is not for everybody

But God does have a plan

And that plan is to strengthen me

Even though I posses acceptance of the life God has chosen for me

I do admit that I still  go back to that young girl that haunts me

She is still a part of me

Its a good thing though cause one thing I admire about the old me

Was the ability to dream and imagine the unimaginable

Although the new me is more determined 

But usually only sees whats tangible

Throughout this revolutionary life changing process 

My only true friends have been God, my music and poetry

There's a place where I can express my thoughts, my feelings, 

And truly live out my dreams

Without being judged for not being part of the team

Where expressions, thoughts, and Love flows within streams

without even making physical contact

And where even passionate Anger flourishes from within 

Like A soaring light Beam

Ready for Attack

-Vane D. Lopez




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ARE YOU THERE GOD? -Vane D Poetry

Are u there GOD? I need You
I see u but I cant find You

I hear You but I don't Listen
I keep searching for things and people
That I think I'm missing
But people and things cant fulfill my needs
And everyday I'm hungry and so are my seeds
Each day I keep looking for something to cure the emptiness
That spreads like a rapid fire causing a painful death
Are u there God? I see you but I am blind
I found u yet I cant Find
Because all I see is the human world
When I should be embracing the spiritual world
I keep looking for compassion and strength
When ur always here with open arms expanding the lengths
Cause there's no limits to the love you give your children
Why do we keep searching for comfort and love
When everything we need is here with us through you
Why do we keep searching the truth
When the truth is you


-Vane D. Lopez

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