Letter to GOD

Dear God,

Thank you for always being there when I needed you
Thank you for listening to my prayers
When all seemed lost you gave me hope
Even through my dark days you gave me light
When I was to weak to seek change you gave me strength
When I saw myself as unworthy, You taught me that I am worthy of love and respect

I’m in a much happier place now even though I still have my days when I look at...

the past
But just knowing that you will always be there to guide me in my path comforts me.
I’m no longer that naïve girl who was afraid of being alone
Your love is all I need to get me through my days.
Everyday is a struggle but I become stronger and wiser

I watch the years go by so fast as my children grow up.
I don’t want them to grow up just yet.
I wish I could seize the moments and just forget.
There’s no doubt that my children are the most amazing gift you have ever given me.
They fill my life with love and strength.

I have something to live for what more can I ask.
Everyday is a challenge, everyday is a task
But I try to handle it with grace as best as I can
I do have my days though as I am not perfect
It’s easy to give all of myself to their special needs and lose myself in the process
But it’s OK I’m up for the challenge, I’m willing to accept my purpose.

I’ll see you when my journey is over
But not yet I have so much to live for and so much to do.
I won’t let you down.

-Vane D. Lopez

GUESS WHO'S BACK!! BACK AGAIN!!!

It's been a long time since I've been online let alone blogging. My life is just overdrive busy with being a single mom, fulltime-student, worker etc.. and my special needs children. My children always come first before anything and the great thing about writing is you can always come back to it either when you have some time to think or you just have a lot on your mind that you need to express.

Fortunately, I have alot on my mind and I am in great need to express myself yet my time is very limited and I'm going tthrough this on sonic speed so please escuse my grammer as I don't have time to edit that much.

Anyways, something that has been bothering me lately has been this political season surrounding my community, which I'm sure has been going on everywhere throughout the country. Though where I'm from Politics is involved in everything especially in schools. I don't know if this is necessarily a good thing or a bad thing but I do know this, where there is greed and corruption there is evil.

What's funny is that these people involved in school politics claim they want to help our community and make a difference in our schools yet they haven't done anything for our children so far.

If you really want to help our community stop with the lies, end the corruption, and end the greed
involved in politics and education, because as long as these things continue to be a part of our school, politics, law etc..the system will always be flawed.

My words to them are as follows:

The first thing you need to do is start with your own children. You can't claim that you will help our children
and community when you do nothing for your own but teach them greed. Talk is cheap, don't just say you will make a difference to get people to vote for you, actually do something before you claim you know what's best. I don't believe in paid advertisements or billboards, they're as fake as the person who paid for it.

I can't say that my family is perfect but when there is an issue I take action the best way I can, when possible. I start with my children first because even if I don't get to make a difference in this world I know that my children eventually will carry on the legacy.

I'm not perfect and neither are my children, I'm human and I make mistakes yet I have learned so much about life. I'm not done learning, I still have a long way to go before I become wiser.

We have struggled so much yet that is what makes us stronger not only as a family unit but as individuals. It is in the struggles that a person can actually learn, teach, and help others.


P.S.  Whoever says "Life's a piece of cake" must be joking. Life is a whole cake that might be missing some elements or ingredients but so what, eat it all up, digest it and make the most of what you do have or better yet learn how to make a better tasting cake each time until you get it right, then teach the children the same ingredients so they can make their own cake. Don't worry if their cake turns out better than yours, it's all part of the plan. ;)

-Vane D. Lopez