My Father

He is a man of strength and wisdom. Although he has lived many years, he stands strong like a vulture. His old age does not reflect his inner youth. It started with a dream within himself and sacrifice for his family. He does not regret what he did in search of freedom and survival for he now has not only one dream but many dreams for his family. His heart is made of gold yet it is priceless. Always willing to work hard with his hands like they taught him in his hometown of Nuevo Leon, Mexico. He is proud of his culture and he makes sure to teach his grandchildren and children of his traditions but he is more proud of what it took to become a Mexican-American. He is an artist and singer who remained undiscovered for his art represents wisdom, courage, and survival. His heartfelt stories are impacting and circulating. His voice represents hope and life. He sings to his family and his grandchildren. He sings to nature while he teaches his autistic grandaughter how to draw and paint. He sings to his granddaughter while she falls asleep. He sings to God with his guitar everyday. He is an angel to everyone who has ever known him. He is a father, a grandfather, a brother, a husband, a friend. He is my father, Mi Padre, mi heroe, he is my strength and he is irreplaceable. 

Just When I Think I Am Done

You know that problem that just never seems to go away no matter how much you try to make it right or just forget about it?

That person who continuously spreads lies about you just to hurt you because you finally decided to move on with your life and not take any more crap from them but they still find a way to hurt you. 

The feelings of emptiness and helplessness that just never leaves you alone no matter how happy you try to be. And just when you think you are finally done it strikes you again and your back to where you started. In other words you regressed to the past, not physically but in spirit and mentally.

You want to move on but that thing or person keeps dragging you back into despair or in other words their level. Yes, I've been there too and possibly still am. The truth is the problem doesn't seem to go away no matter how much you try but it's how you deal with it that helps you move on at least in your mind.

"I'm proud of my heart. It's been played, Stabbed, Cheated, Burned and broken, but somehow Still works."

First of all you must face your problem or fear:

If it's a certain person making your life hell, then be courteous to them even if you can't stand them. Kindness kills all evil and it's the best revenge. Trust me nothing hurts your enemy more than seeing you happy. Showing them that what they are doing doesn't hurt you anymore and you won't put up with it, but that you forgive them anyway, is key to getting rid of some feelings of helplessness.

If it's a problem or fear then face it and if you can't fix it then just accept it and move on to what you can fix which is yourself. Work on things you can change about yourself that can prevent or create future problems or at least how you react to them. We can't always control what happens to us but we can control how we deal with problems and how we manage them.

Find Comfort in things that make you Happy

It might be hard to find time for yourself but it is key in being emotionally healthy. My happiness contributors = God, family, songwriting, poetry, music, school…, etc. There will be times though that I need a break from school and even family due to my busy schedule s that's where poetry and songwriting comes into the picture. 

I don't always have time for people because I put my family first but I have to find time for poetry or songwriting once in a while because its part of who I am. If you stop being yourself then who are you? Now I can say that I don't always publish my poetry or songs online. Most of my work is for my own personal gratification or humorous delectation (Yes I like laughing at myself through music&poetry..lol). I don't always feel that people will understand my words and they might judge me but when I create them they live forever in  my paper. 

If coffee is you're thing, then by all means take a coffee break once in a while. If your life schedule is overbooked, then try to reduce the things that can wait or are not that important. Taking some time for yourself is how you discover who you are as a person so that you can share your true inner beauty with others. If you don't find time to make yourself happy, then you will be a very stressed and angry person and that will only make others around you unhappy too. (lol)

Surround yourself with positive people or Family

It's always good to surround yourself with people who know you well and know your story since they will understand more than anything what you've been through. Other people will just assume they know you but they don't. Nevertheless be open to welcome new people in your life that want to be a part of your life. 

Keep your circle small as even some friends or family members pretend to care about you when they are secretly planning on stabbing you in the back. Nevertheless don't assume everyone is out to get you, just know how to tell the difference between people who really have your best interest at heart or who are only interested in breaking your heart.

People who are constantly criticizing what you do might not have your best interest at heart. A true friend listens and offers advice or constructive criticism but doesn't judge you maliciously. Surrounding yourself with people who seem to genuinely care about you and make you feel good is key in overcoming certain problems or issues but don't confuse constructive criticism with malicious criticism. 

Most people do have your best interest at heart and might not have the best words of comfort but it doesn't mean they don't care about you. They might not even know that their words hurt you, just let them know how you feel and talk about it before it turns into another problem in your life that can be avoided.

Use your feelings of emptiness/despair towards your talent or Hobby

Find out what your good at or if you already have a hobby or passion, use your feelings to create something amazing with it. It doesn't have to be to showcase it to anyone or to become well known but it will give you a sense of pride and joy knowing you created something beautiful out of your despair. 

When you're going through something unpleasant and you use it towards something that is your passion, it can actually produce some amazing internal feelings. I know that whenever I'm going through something I pick up my pen and start songwriting or write a poem that I immediately get a rush throughout my whole body. I know it's weird but it's the way that I deal with issues in my life and I believe it's the most healthy natural way to prevent depression but that's just my opinion. 

So whatever it is your good at or you love to do, use your anger, frustration, passion or whatever and release it into your talent and create something amazing. If you're an artist then your painting will be 1000 times more amazing if you PUT YOUR HEART into it.

Keep Moving: Don't Give Up

No matter what happens in your life, remember to never give up and keep looking forward. The more we focus on the past, the more we get dragged by it making it harder to move on. Like I said before the problem and that person might not ever go away but it's how we deal with it that makes a difference in how our emotional state will be. I can't say I have mastered this just yet because I still deal with these issues but I am a different person now than I was before. 


I have been through so much in my life and I have felt like giving up so many times but I also managed to overcome those fears by facing them and saying "no more." It's not easy to move on and demand respect. The old me would put up with being hurt for fear of change, but the new me is stronger because of what I've been through. I feel as though I'm not fully back to myself, but I am a wiser person who has evolved into who I was meant to be all along. I don't regret what I've been through as it was a test in my life that I have passed never to be repeated. 

“People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway. If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway. For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.” ― Mother Teresa

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These Flower Headbands are so beautiful and they are perfect for Spring. They fit babies, toddlers, and girls. I think I'm getting some for my girls. They are adorable!! You can find these at The Kidos Store > :)

Random Thought: Why I Hate Phones That Are Smarter Than Me

I don't like it when a phone is smarter than me. It makes me feel jealous. I like to be in control of my phone not have my phone tell me what to do.

Don't get me wrong, I used to own a smart phone and I loved it (that's the problem). I depended to much on it for everything and if I didn't have it I would go crazy and turn into a psychopath investigator being suspicious of everything and everyone.

Everywhere I went I had to use my phone and it was touchscreen so if I would put it in my pocket it would start dialing random people.

Anyways, here are just a few reasons I dislike Smart Phones:

I don't want people to laugh at me

My phone didn't have spell check but I've heard most new smart phones such as Blackberries have this and I've heard it's a pain in the a**. At least that's what I've seen from some FB statuses.

We got people calling themselves "gay" when they meant "wey" (dude) and "kiss" instead of "diss" and other words that are too rated for me to mention them here. Apparently these new smart phones are not Street Smart lol!

This type of words can make you the laughing stock and can really damage your online as well as offline image. People will look at you differently if you know what I mean.


Smart Phone APPS

Another reason I hate smart phones is because of the apps. I mean don't get me wrong, I'm not putting down people who like to play games on their phones or like certain apps. My problem is that certain other types of apps such as spy ware or malware can be installed into your phone without your knowledge.

 One particular spy ware that seems to be popular amongst smart phones is Mspy. This type of software is advertised as helping people catch their cheating spouses or businesses to spy on their employees if they are using the companies property such as company cell phones, computers, etc.

While it seems harmless to most, it can get out of control and most of these apps are being used unethically. Too much power in the wrong hands or SMART phones can get crazy or should I say Genious crazy.

THEY DIE

Theses smart phones are so smart that eventually they get tired and their batteries need recharging just like people except we don't always die on the spot. These phones are more unpredictable than a human's life and they require so much energy. 

When they don't have enough they die and it could leave you at anytime when you most need it. You could be having a special conversation with someone or an important phone conference that gets cut off all because your phone needs to be charged.

YOU LOSE BRAIN CELLS

I mean here you are depending on your phone for everything. You are using GPS to get to places and you are searching everything you need so your brain stops functioning like it should be. 

Don't get me wrong even computers do this to us sometimes but smart phones are so portable that people seem to carry it anywhere so they become dependable on it even for simple reasoning skills that they forget how to think for themselves. 

There are many more reasons why I hate smart phones but it would take a book for me to express my opinions (it's a possibility lol). I always get crap about not replying to phone texts and I have to apologize for my phone not being as fast or smart. 

It takes forever for me to type a text on my prepaid numbers only phone but since practically everyone owns a smart phone, not everyone understands me. I know I'm probably missing out on all the game apps mania fun but it's OK as long as I don't lose myself.

They think I'm just ignoring them, but I'm not. People can judge me all they want about me not owning a smart phone but I won't apologize for not wanting to own one. That's just my decision and believe me I am much happier now that I don't own one. 

Note: Not everyone who owns a smart phone depends on it as much and I'm not saying that these phones are for people who are not smart. It's just a concern I have that large corporations are making billions from these phones and humanity is paying a much higher price than just money, such as their freedom and their true selves but that's just my opinion. 

Disclaimer: The opinions expressed here is solely of myself and I do not represent or endorse the accuracy or reliability of the above OPINIONS, neither would I be responsible for any consequential damages arising directly or indirectly from the actions resulting from such opinions. Reader is asked to do their own due diligence or research before taking any action! For the Smart Phone companies: I am not responsible for individuals or companies who stop purchasing smart phones or vice versa. As I mentioned before, I am only expressing my opinion. (I just had 2 put that here4legal purposes..lol)

Wow!! Longtime no SEE!!

It's been awhile since I've been on here but I've been busy with school, the flu, motherhood and YES I'm still looking for a job although I would like to think that writing, motherhood, and school is my job for now. I would also like to share that I'm trying the Sacred Heart Diet again in a couple of days or a week.

The first time I tried it I lost 14 lbs. in a week but I weighed over 200 lbs. I'm still overweight but at least I'm not obese anymore and I know it was this diet that helped jumpstart most of my weight-loss but since the holidays I gained 10 lbs. but luckily I got the flu and lost them back (Yes I know that's not a good way of losing weight but I was sick, I couldn't help it..lol).

Anyways, back to topic, In case you haven't read my article where I explain my weight-loss experience, Read Here. I need to get back on track, not only for myself but for my family. Plus, I could use all the energy I can get especially if it's natural.

After being sick for over a month with Flu, I'm longing to feel better and gain some of the energy this vegetable soup provides. I'll let you know how it goes next week. I doubt I'll lose as much weight as the first time since I weigh less but it's worth a try! Wish me luck!

The World Day of the Sick

On February 11 it will be The World Day of the Sick. So what does this mean? It doesn't mean we are celebrating sickness rather its a way of celebrating life.


This day should be used as a reflection of our health as well as others and how we must help each other especially in times of sickness. It's a time to remember God's love and the power of healing in times of sickness.


Isn't it weird that sometimes sickness brings people together but it shouldn't always be like that. If we took care of one another and looked out for each other then we could somehow prevent some types of sicknesses or at least lessen the prolongs of it.


God gave us this life for a reason and he gave us salvation through his son Jesus Christ. Although we are not perfect and we will never be in this world since we are all sinners, the least we can do is try to live a worthy life and change our bad habits that can not only destroy our own lives, but the ones who love us too.


Life is a test and each day is a lesson learned. We weren't born perfect but if we continue to learn from life then we will eventually gain the wisdom we need to fall into the likeliness that God intended us to be with a heart of Gold!

Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress. He sent forth His word and healed them; he rescued them from the grave. Psalm 107:19-20

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I Just thought I'd share this with the world. One day I was working on my blog and I stayed logged in and Aliyah started using the computer. Aliyah typed it! hehe. At least she's learning how to type now. Maybe there is a meaning to her mad typing. It's probably a different language but I think she was trying to tell me something. ;)

Click on the link below to read Aliyah's Blog post. Whether you can understand it or not, you gotta admit it's BEAUTIFUL!!

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